We just went through a bit of a scare with Hudson. He recently went to the hospital with RSV, Bronchiolitis, and a double ear infection. After a weeklong stay we now have him back home and our family is back together once again. The state Hudson was in when we took him to Urgent Care was quite serious. We didn't realize how bad things were until later. We thank the Lord that he is now well. When you go through such things with your children it causes you to think. I know it did me. While the situation itself was frightening, I couldn't help feeling blessed as I reflected on all that God brought us through to get us where we are.
The story behind how our family grew is a testament to the sovereign hand of God. He indeed knows all, and works all things out according to His will and thankfully He works them out for our good. Now, the fact is we don't always see it that way and actually at times the circumstances surrounding a particular situation can make it quit challenging to trust God's wisdom. But He is faithful nonetheless.
Hudson is our first born son. My wife however was pregnant once before. We actually wondered at times if we would be able to have children at all. We were married for 8 years before God allowed my wife and I to get pregnant. We were elated. What an answer to prayer! We didn't know that we would never get to meet that child. That was a very difficult time for the both of us. However, one year later my wife was expecting another child, and on January 7th of 2011 Hudson was born. I don't know what would be different today if we hadn't lost our first baby. I do know this though; I wouldn't trade Hudson for anything in the world. I don't know what we've missed out on, but I know we have Hudson. God is good. I hope what I am saying is making sense. I have to believe that is was through the sorrow of losing our first baby that God brought us Hudson.
Even the way the boys came to be with us is an example of God's thoughts and ways being higher than our own. The situation they were in before living with my parents was undesirable to say the least. I wouldn't wish their story on anyone. Children belong with their parents, and parents ought to provide a stable and healthy environment for their children. That doesn't always happen unfortunately and so we have our boys. There is a bit of humor wrapped up in the story though. We always knew the boys would come and live with us some day, but we wanted the timing to be in God’s hands not ours. That being said we never pursued anything. Two weeks after finding out that we were pregnant with Hudson, my mom called to discuss something with Lindsay and I. She did not know we were expecting. No one did. She wanted to talk about the possibility of us taking the boys. We were so happy. We said yes and in one year's time we went from having no children to having a new born and two young boys.
When you are deep in a valley you cannot always see the peaks that are waiting ahead. Sometimes when you are on the peaks you forget all about the valleys you had to go through to get there. The fact is though, that because there are lows, there are also highs. We have each by virtue of the others existence. If there were no lows there would be no highs and visa versa. Therefore let us be thankful always. God is good. His wisdom will take us only where He knows we need to go in order to get us where He knows we need to be. If we are going through a valley in our lives let us trust that it is because God knows we need to be there. He is taking us through it in order to get us to a peak that is waiting just ahead.